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Wednesday, August 4th, 2010
1:44 am
i don't know
one of these days, i suspect one of you will inform me of what love is.
Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
2:54 am
drunk swirls in
on a bottle.

and
half a bag of chips.

half a bag of chips
over two days
i'm pretty fucking sure
drunk is better this way.

hunger for food
and for a lost soul,
hahafuckingha
again i'm 19 years old.

black and crushed
the little boy whined,
the tiny violin
playing in time...

no sympathy or guilt.
feed me
no regrets to rehash.
love me
i'll lose it i'll find it.
please
is there a chance?

hold my arm
while i squeeze it tight
watch the veins stick out.


JUNKIE
REHAB
FUCKUP
MORON?
iwasscaredinsecureandinlove
PHENOM
FAVORITE
TOPOF
THE CLASS?
iwasboldcockyanddead.

don't leave your fancy booze,
in the company of somebody who's...

a dreamer
an asshole
a poet
a prick
a fuck up
a reacher
the bottom

NIT WIT...

and WHAT

THE

FUCK

WERE

YOU

THINKING???

drunk swirled in.
thank god.
just on time.
12:50 am
i'm pretty sure that i'm leaving boston.
i sift through the ashes
of the year i blazed with a torch
of people i've burned
of the bridges scorched

i picked up a picture
and forced myself to look
at the chapters closed
in this empty book

i'm going home
with my head hanging low
back fucking home
with nothing in tow

i sift through the ashes
of a promising talent
this weird fucking stretch
without touching a mallet

i picked up a picture
and saw a laugh frozen in time
of this girl i once knew
standing in front of a lobster sign

one of my homes
that i sold for a price
i gambled my soul
for those fuzzy dice...

i sift through the ashes
of two lovers lost
though one gave me the other
i paid the cost

i picked up a picture
oh that box of ice
it's kind of sad to see
the pain in those dead eyes

those eyes were my home
until they moved out
leaving me to think
about the year i burned down.

Current Mood: numb
Friday, May 30th, 2008
8:32 pm
upside down
I've got a dollar in my pocket and two cents on my mind,
you came into my room
this place that is mine.

and turned my day upside down.

I've got a smoke in my hand and a whirling brain,
you came into my life
which can never be the same.

you turned my world upside down.

stuck a needle in my arm
addiction in a pin,
struck a crack in my soul
fucked me again,
shoved me down
and punched my face
pushed me away
made me a disgrace,
to the ones i loved
to the ones i knew
the life i had...
i love you too.

I've got some coffee in a cup and a paper to read,
you walked in today
and made me want to flee.

you turned my mood upside down.

I've got a pain in my chest and a tear on my cheek,
walked out the door
fuck you for making me weak.

you turned.

stuck a needle in my arm
addiction in a pin,
struck a crack in my soul
fucked me again,
shoved me down
and punched my face
pushed me away
made me a disgrace,
to the ones i loved
to the ones i knew
the life i had...
i love you too.

Current Mood: anxious
Saturday, May 3rd, 2008
4:35 pm
ashbloodliquifiedandroid/human
hiding from the rain with a cup of coffee and some borrowed headphones i dream of a life that seems lost in a cloud of smoke and a white powdered bag full of false confidence and real regret/regret of what i've lost WHO i've lost what i've done and what i've lost...over and over and over and under. sinking? soaring? flatline. IHATEYOU.IHATEYOU.iloveyou.shrinking/growing/passing along without a home or hope of future.myfuturecouldbebright.itcouldbeBRIGHT.as the fucking sun baby if i get off my ass and out of my head and into the street in front of a fucking car/train/plane.it's plain. flicker.flutter.fuck.relentless monotiny.relelentless fucking waste of a year.possessions lost to the elements.to the fucking elements-will you buy me a drink?whiskey downed to drown.drunken flings.i broke your guitar i broke my talent.broke. cold broken and alone.i want a cigarette/and a marimba. i want to see sparkling humans under an effervescent sphere of warmth/if you get up close burning all encompassed. ashy bloody liquid. a mess AFUCKINGMESSand i can see it all. RAIN DOWN.pour down/my throat a bottle of earlytimes another bottle of earlytimes, anyone for a shot of jack to chase it with?beyond that i do not, i confess,i do not know.back and forth and up and down.

come back

Current Mood: annoyed
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
11:43 am
clarification...
ok...on the last entry i wasn't exactly clear....who posted the anonymous comment on april 17?...about sarah's blog?....let me know.....musicotb2@yahoo.com
2:10 am
???
......

ummm....who left the the last comment on here?...just out of curiousity...if you don't want to put your name on here....drop me an e-mail....musicotb2@yahoo.com...thanks:)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
9:50 pm
oh here it goes...
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oh it's done...i paid the fat bitch off and let me just tell you....the gloves are coming off....no more pussyfooting around anything because i feel guilty....no more allowing that stank fucking bitch to leave her shit around our apt....no more nice Tj.....

HA...she thinks she had it bad before and that i was 'mean' to her!?...bitch doesn't KNOW mean...

the playing field is level and i'm looking forward to kicking some serious ass...

Current Mood: irate
Monday, January 16th, 2006
7:57 am
Winter has returned;()
Two nights ago i realized something very valuable. I need some better gear. I was out on a mission, to assassinate Lord Monoko of the Myrogaki clan. I left my apartment in stealth, weapons checked and completely invisible to the average passerby. The problem i ran into was the intense downpour of freezing rain dumped all over Boston. Exactly one hour after the departure from my home I arrived at the hidden lair of Lord Monoko only to realize I was completely soaked to the bone. Clenching my teeth to ease the chatter and twisting the water from my clothing I realized I could no longer be undercover. My shoes were squeaky. My clothes were heavy. I was making dripping noises. This was unacceptable. I would not be able to complete my mission. My stealth was dead....

I need to find out where Christian Bale got that batsuit. it's weather proof.

Current Mood: normal winter weather finally!
Friday, January 13th, 2006
6:02 pm
the old ball and chain...
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i am a prisoner in my own home....

So my parents finally mailed my keyboard from ohio the other day and it was guaranteed to arrive TODAY....but there was a slight possibility that it would arrive YESTERDAY....so for two days now, i have not been able to leave my house for even one second for fear that i might miss the mail dude....but guess what!? as is the fashion in my life....it didn't show up today!....ugh...so today was wasted and i feel lazy cuz i never left the house....but man can i tell you what's going on in the world of Oprah, Ellen, Tyra, Regis, Kelly, Diane and Katie.....BIG GIANT SAD FACE!...

ok...anyway...i was just curious as to whether or not anyone followed that link from my last post to my brother's myspace account....let me know what you think:)

and if you care...i finally got into the world of today and got a myspace account as well...here it is:)

http://www.myspace.com/marimbatj


check it out....friend me....make me feel important....

oh yeah...happy friday the thirteenth!

Current Mood: cranky
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
5:32 am
how funny is this!??
ok...so i decided to fill this thing out just for the hell of it cuz i wanted to see the answers and snicker a little bit at it...but oh holy jesus did i laugh hard when i read it...so i needed to share it...

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LiveJournal Username
Age
Favorite ice cream
Favorite season
Thinks you're ass is tight:cvblondie
Wants to lick hot chocolate off you're body:ivy7373
Wonders how good you are in bed:chiznadhb2
Wishes you would screw him/her on the spot:kennamaroo
Is romatically in love with you:zero9
Wishes you were gay so he/she could love you better:woozlindemon
Hopes you'll take him/her to great heights (wink wink nudge nudge):lambiesrock
Day dreams about having sex with you 24/7:sarandpty
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Current Mood: silly
Monday, August 1st, 2005
12:27 am
YES!....something shiny....and a princess froggy!!!!!!!
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Current Mood: sleepy
Monday, July 25th, 2005
2:57 pm
suggestions anyone??
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so i am updating today because i have been on a reading frenzy as of late and would LOOOOOVE some suggestions. I'm looking for something different/witty/cool/interesting....ANYTHING....

i figured if i reached out on here i might get some cool responses....sooo...suggest away:)

Current Mood: ....
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
1:59 pm
scientology....AKA....the religion that CRAZY built...
Dearest readers,

I would like to take a few moments of your time to spread the gospel of Xenu. It has been brought to my attention as of late that some of you have come to ill-informed conclusions about our true purpose and heritage. Due to the widely spread propaganda and guess work of over zealous "god" following beings, there has been a massive epidemic of thetan poisoning. Each and every person on this planet has the extremely important and valuable task of upholding their individual vessels so we may harvest our thetans(remnants of ancient intergalactic souls) when the time becomes appropriate. The preservance of said thetans ensures that all earthlings will eventually become self-aware and be able to float outside of their human vessels. Seventy-five millions years ago, the intergalactic warlord and saviour called Xenu traveled far and wide across the universe collecting and ceremoniously killing beings from many planets. The Great One then took the dangerous and wonderful journey to the planet earth to set forth his vision of a future of awareness, of euphoria and most importantly, an expensive and lucrative organization now known as The Church of Scientology. The arrival of the great Lord Xenu set into motion a chain reaction of furious volcano eruptions and explosions propelling the harvested thetans into our then empty and hopeless atmosphere. When the dust settled and skies were once again clear, the smoldering thetans were implanted into the creatures that inhabited this planet, paving the way for the destiny of this once hopeless and desolate orbiting spherical rock. The holy thetan remnants would lay dormant for nearly seventy-five million years before the anointed womb came into existence. Saint L. Ron Hubbard burst forward from his holy womb with words of wisdom and knowledge which would help build the bridge into the new millennium. A millennium of enlightenment and pure bliss as the work of Lord Xenu finally came to pass.
The penultimate goal, however, has been thwarted for the time being by the evil teachings of nazi psychiatrists found across the globe. These evil creatures are slowly poisoning the masses with dangerous concoctions known as psychiatric drugs, and even more alarming is the "therapy" they force millions to take part in. This "therapy" I speak of was installed by the most evil of the Nazis from germany and should be exposed for what it truly is; witchcraft. Through this horrible witchcraft and obsession with mind altering narcotics, the thetans are slowly dying out and the preservation of everything that is decent will soon be in very grave danger.
We, The Church of Scientology, are now calling forth the members of this planet to help fight back. We want to preserve the lifework of the Great and Powerful Xenu. We want to do all of these noble things, but with such lofty goals set before us we need help. We need you to stand up to Brooke Shields and everything that is evil. We need you to send money. We need a war. and it starts with you. Thank you for your time and cooperation and i hope that now that you're informed of THE WAY, you will open your eyes and free yourself.
nanu-nanu


Yours truly...
Tom Cruise
OT-VII




ps. have you SEEN how cute i am with Katie!!???.....i'm so in love......

Current Mood: amused
Thursday, July 7th, 2005
4:46 am
argh...
well....i tried to post this earlier...but lj decided to spank out....here goes again....i thought this was a really interesting/accurate test....take it:)

Orange
What Color is Your Brain?

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ORANGE:

At work or in school: I need to be "hands on": I like to play games, to compete, and to perform. I enjoy flexibility, changes of pace, and variety. I have difficulty with routine and structure. My favorite subjects are music, art, theatre, and crafts. I often excel in sports. I like solving problems in active ways and negotiating for what I want. I can be direct and like immediate results.
With friends: Planning ahead bores me because I never know what I want to do until the moment arrives. I like to excite my friends with new and different things, places to go, and romantic moments.
With family: I need a lot of space and freedom. I want everyone to have fun. It is hard for me to follow rules, and I feel we should all just enjoy one another.

Current Mood: annoyed
Saturday, June 25th, 2005
6:39 pm
holy awesome movie batman!
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first off....i would just like to say that BATMAN BEGINS is the most awesomest bestest coolest neatest movie EVER!!!!!! GO SEE IT....

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I would also like to say that i'm dying of a heat stroke....and this may be my last entry ever because of the oppresive heat and the fact that my skin is melting right off my bones as we speak....


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oh....one more thing....i had the best birthday ever....thanks to all involved. i have the coolest friends.

Current Mood: hot
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
9:32 pm
Birthday plans....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well....i suppose this year will be much better because i don't want to kill myself....

8:00---get up....lotsa coffee and cigarettes.....

9:35---must clean my room....it looks like *insert something witty and clever about the mess*....

....go to bank of america and blow it up....or complain to the manager about the RAGING CUNT that "helped" me out with my situation today....

12:00----BATMAN BEGINS with the tom...it better be damn good the way he's pumped it up....and then picking up heavy things and putting them down repeatedly for rapid muscle enlargement....

after that?....I feel that inebriation would be the most productive use of my time......oh yeah.... PARTY!...club calumet.....come over!!!!!....i have a GIANT bed!!!!!!

if you are lucky.....you'll catch a rematch lightsaber duel....i still have the original drawer and copper pole....AND plenty of extra cardboard!

woot.

Current Mood: thirsty
Friday, June 17th, 2005
5:08 pm
copied from the journal of X-tina
Name 20 Friends:
1. Tom
2. Sarah VDW
3. Bob
4. Sarah T.
5. Dwyke
6. Dannie
7. Marcianess
8. X-tina
9. Stephanie
10. Justin
11. Nichole
12. Marcus
13. Aria
14. Pius
15. Eriko
16. Iggy
17. Derek
18. Jesse
19. Sarah G.
20. Mike
-------<3--------
-Who is 8 going out with? -> ...depends on who she can find to pee on her....
-Is 9 a boy or a girl? -> she is of the female variety
-Would 11 and 2 go out? -> no....but they would make one hottass lesbianic couple:)
-How about 18 and 4? -> i'm not quite sure how Jesse would feel about sarah T.'s vagina....PLUS...she's married...
-What year is 17 in? -> not sure....junior???
-When was the last time you talked to 12? -> A couple of weeks ago...
-What is 6's favorite band? -> i don't know....something gay and danceable though....
-Would you ever date 3? -> umm....how about NO....he has a beard....
-Would you ever date 17?-> No....but i could tell you stories about his brother.... ;)
-Is 16 single? -> Iggy is a playa.....
-What's 15's last name? -> Damo
-What's 10's middle name? -> i have no clue....
-What's 5's favorite thing to do? -> dancing/ having sex
-Is 13 hot? -> Yes....he gets paid for it....oh...and apparently so hot his likeness has been stolen and published....
-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple? -> Well...another one of those married sarah's.....and pius only likes twelve year olds.....PERV!!!
-What school does 20 go to? -> Ohio State University
-Tell me a random fact about 11? -> She has recently relocated to chicago....oh....and HEY COOKALOOKOOO!
-And 1? -> He likes to put ceasar dressing on cold pasta noodles....and has a plethora of kleenex in his room....YOU KNOW!!!!!!!
-Have you ever had a crush on 15? -> in the way that she's SUPA-HOTT and gives me kisses....but she barely speaks engrish......
-What's 4's favorite color? -> my guess is pink...i just asked her....pink/green/red....
-Are 5 & 6 best friends? - actually....yes....or better stated....more of a co-dependant relationship....
-Does 7 like 20? -> i'm sure they did...they get along with everyone...
-Does 8 like 19? -> i think so...i can't see why not?
-How did you meet 2? -> We moved into the same house together in the dead of winter 2004
-How did you meet 17? -> i met him through the marcia...she brought him over my house a few years ago and acted like a psycho:)
-Does 10 have any pets? -> He's OUR pet...
-Is 12 older than you? -> yeppers....by a few years:)
-Have you had oral relations with 3? -> a world of no....oh wait...no....still no:)
-Is 8 the sexiest person alive? -> Oh yeah.....she's so sexy i want to fist her.....

Current Mood: blah
Monday, February 14th, 2005
4:15 pm
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Six years ago...part of me left and never came back...

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Have you ever watched soemone die?
held their hand when they took their last breathe?
listened to that last gasp of air as it leaked back out into the surounding?

warm to cold
soft to hard
something to nothing.
someone to no one.


and she was gone.

some days are worse than others....

Current Mood: numb
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
10:47 pm
sometimes i gross even myself out....
Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Self-Lovin'20%
I wouldn't shake hands, if I were you
65.1%
Shamelessness54.8%
It takes a couple of drinks
79.3%
Sex Drive 39.5%
I got needs, baby, you gotta unnastan'!
77.6%
Straightness3.6%
Knows the other body type like a map
44.5%
Gayness 3.6%
Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
83.8%
Fucking Sick75.2%
Refreshingly normal
90%
You are 35.81% pure
Average Score: 72.7%


Current Mood: chipper
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